| 121194-070508 rip gyzmo have fun playing with spike, kane & scooby |
[05 Jul 2008|02:21pm] |
you guys probably already knew this but i put my dog to sleep today :( around the end of may he had gotten worms and the vet treated him and he was all better, thank god because the idea of worms was just disgusting. anyway, so a week after that he had been acting weird. he was really lazy and just didnt do much of anything anymore. he wouldn't get excited about walks or going for a ride in my car, he used to follow me all around my house and whenever i'd leave the room his eyes would follow me and a few minutes later he would start whining until i came to pick him up and bring him wherever i was. so i knew something was wrong, but i didn't take him to the vet for it. then the next warning sign started, he couldn't eat anything. okay, hes spoiled, if anyone is eating, they give him some of whatever they're eating, thats just how it goes with him! so when he wouldn't whine or beg for food or even eat his own food, i knew again something was wrong. for about a week whenever he would eat anything, because i would make him eat, he would start whining and howling, so i would take him outside and of course, he'd throw up. right away i rushed him to the vet and after tests i was told he has intestinal blockage, right away i said 'okay so fix him' until i was told it'd be 3grand just for the surgery. there was no way i could afford that, no way at all. so the vet told me to start giving him 'dogsure' which is just like ensure, it has all his vitamins and everything he needs. so i took him to petsmart and bought dogsure and some pills for jointcare because he was walking differently and the vet said it was probably from pain. so, after a week of dogsure i bought pedialyte for him, too. and he was still losing weight and not changing much at all. sure he would start begging for food more than he had, he'd go for walks and loved it, but, after he ate he would get sick. i knew something had to be done. after a lot of talking about it and weighing my options the only real option i had was to put him to sleep. i called the humane society last monday to ask about it and i cried while i was on the phone with them. i never thought it would have hurt this much honestly. so they told me all about it and told me their hours and everything. i wanted to be the one to take him, but i wouldn't have took him. i would have made up an excuse saying he's better and that he doesnt need it, like i attempted to do anyway. my aunt told me she would take him for me and i agreed, until she came to get him. i was holding him, like i had done all day because i knew today was the last day. so when she walked inside i started holding him tighter because i didnt want it to happen. i was fighting with her for a few minutes, telling her he's better and that he can eat now and that hes not in pain or anything. of course i lied, and she knew it. so she took him out of my arms and i couldn't even say bye to him. i rubbed his head and that was it because if i had said anything i would have began to cry even more and i knew what was about to happen was the best for him. so alas, gyzmo is now in dog heaven playing with spike, kane & scooby. it's so weird to come home and not hear his paws on the hardwood floors as he prances around :( i have all of his sweaters, his toys, his beg, his blankets, his leashes, his collars, everything of his laying on my bed and i honestly didn't think i would be this upset about it happening, but i really am. i know i am rambling here and no one is probably still readng this and thats okay because this is somehow making me feel better.
RIP the best dog in the world
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